Friday, July 31, 2009
First Love - Utada Hikaru
Man, this song has been on my mind since I heard it. It's been a month now. It's too addicting for me. Makes me start reminiscing and I start getting sad. D:
Makes me remember Andrew, even though he WASN'T my first love, but still. It gets me so mad that he didn't tell me that he was moving.
And on the last day he was ignoring me. So I'm like wtf. I'm your girlfriend and we would've worked it out somehow right?
Idunno, I think it was my imagination that I thought we would last for a long time.
I won't let this situation happen to me again. I went through it and I learned from it. I should have talked to him and asked him what was wrong, but no. I had to walk pass him and think everything would change the next day. >_<
I know there's plenty more guys, but he's the one that I can't forget even though it's been 7 months since he left. D:
Somehow I'll get past this. I know I will. (:
Cause there's people in my life that ALWAYS gonna be there for me. F.A.S all the way. <3
Lyrics:
The last kiss
tasted like tobacco
a bitter and sad smell
tomorrow, at this time
where will you be?
who will you be thinking about?
you are always gonna be my love
even if i fall in love with someone once again
i'll remember to hold on
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
it's still a sad song
until i can sing a new song
the paused time is
about to start moving
there's many things that i don't want to forget about
tomorrow, at this time
i will probably be crying
i will probably be thinking about you
you will always be inside my heart
you will always have your own place
i hope that i have a place in your heart too
now and forever you are still the one
it's still a sad song
until i can sing a new song
you are always gonna be my love
even if i fall in love with someone once again
i'll remember to hold on
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
it's still a sad song
now and forever...
Today
My day was fine. I got to meet up with old friends, Crystal and Brenda. (:
It's been hella long since we've seen each other so it felt weird the entire day. Lmao.
We caught up with things in life, but it seemed that we weren't really getting caught up. xD
We hung out with each other for two hours. Everytime we would talk there would always be an awkward silence right after.
They invited me and my sister to go to the movies with them and their friends from Rutter. So it's gonna be fun meeting them again and making new friends.
Can't wait to go to Florin and meet my other friends and I'll be making a lot of new ones so yeah.
Then I went home and played wii with my sister and grandma. xD
It was hilarious, but I got to spend time with my family so it's all cool.
Once I was done playing I started playing on my ps2. Lmao.
I got bored of that too sooner or later. Then I asked my parents for a $1 cause I was short on money for the movies so their gonna give me it tomorrow. ;D
Then my brother heard and he started talking to me. Like "Did you ask permission? What movie you watching? What time your gonna go?" and then he said not to be too late. xD
I was all like wow. Lol. Hopefully tomorrow is gonna be worth it though. (:
It's been hella long since we've seen each other so it felt weird the entire day. Lmao.
We caught up with things in life, but it seemed that we weren't really getting caught up. xD
We hung out with each other for two hours. Everytime we would talk there would always be an awkward silence right after.
They invited me and my sister to go to the movies with them and their friends from Rutter. So it's gonna be fun meeting them again and making new friends.
Can't wait to go to Florin and meet my other friends and I'll be making a lot of new ones so yeah.
Then I went home and played wii with my sister and grandma. xD
It was hilarious, but I got to spend time with my family so it's all cool.
Once I was done playing I started playing on my ps2. Lmao.
I got bored of that too sooner or later. Then I asked my parents for a $1 cause I was short on money for the movies so their gonna give me it tomorrow. ;D
Then my brother heard and he started talking to me. Like "Did you ask permission? What movie you watching? What time your gonna go?" and then he said not to be too late. xD
I was all like wow. Lol. Hopefully tomorrow is gonna be worth it though. (:
This Week
So this week A LOT of things happened. xD
Wednesday was my Mom and Dad's 25th wedding anniversary. So congrats. (:
We had a huge party and a lot of people came. The kids played games and took pictures. It was crazy tho.
I played Boom Blox with my cousins and siblings and my arm is hella sore now. D:
Then my older sister's friends came and I had to start taking pictures of people. I was barely in any of them. xD Lol.
Later Aj's family came and they settled down and ate food and other things.
Now everyone in my family wanna steal Aj's little brother, Sebastian. Lmao.
We said good-bye to people who were leaving and we decided to go bowling. :D
We went bowling at Strikes and paid for two lanes. We were divided into teams and then we would switch every round.
The first group I was with was with my brother, Karyz, Aj, and Grace. The other group had Kuya John, my sister, Thao, Viet, and Justin.
I kinda sucked the first round, but the second round I got better. (:
The second round Thao and Viet went with me, Karyz, and Aj.
After Strikes closed we went to go drop off Aj and Grace was able to see all of her Hello Kitty things. Lmao.
When we got home the people who stayed was gonna sleep over at our house. xD
Me and my cousins and siblings started playing Rock Band. (:
I seriously suck on drums. I'm only good at bass or guitar. xD
After a couple of hours playing I got sleepy so I went to sleep cause I had other things to do the next day.
On Thursday my cousins left and the adults went to Red Hawk Casino.
Me and my sister just occupied ourselves on the internet and watched movies and other things.
Later on through the night Karyz and me started playing Resident Evil. It was fine nothing bad was happening, but then my older sister came and turned off ALL the lights. D:
I'll probably post some pictures up later, but if I don't check my myspace? Probably not there, but idunno.
Wednesday was my Mom and Dad's 25th wedding anniversary. So congrats. (:
We had a huge party and a lot of people came. The kids played games and took pictures. It was crazy tho.
I played Boom Blox with my cousins and siblings and my arm is hella sore now. D:
Then my older sister's friends came and I had to start taking pictures of people. I was barely in any of them. xD Lol.
Later Aj's family came and they settled down and ate food and other things.
Now everyone in my family wanna steal Aj's little brother, Sebastian. Lmao.
We said good-bye to people who were leaving and we decided to go bowling. :D
We went bowling at Strikes and paid for two lanes. We were divided into teams and then we would switch every round.
The first group I was with was with my brother, Karyz, Aj, and Grace. The other group had Kuya John, my sister, Thao, Viet, and Justin.
I kinda sucked the first round, but the second round I got better. (:
The second round Thao and Viet went with me, Karyz, and Aj.
After Strikes closed we went to go drop off Aj and Grace was able to see all of her Hello Kitty things. Lmao.
When we got home the people who stayed was gonna sleep over at our house. xD
Me and my cousins and siblings started playing Rock Band. (:
I seriously suck on drums. I'm only good at bass or guitar. xD
After a couple of hours playing I got sleepy so I went to sleep cause I had other things to do the next day.
On Thursday my cousins left and the adults went to Red Hawk Casino.
Me and my sister just occupied ourselves on the internet and watched movies and other things.
Later on through the night Karyz and me started playing Resident Evil. It was fine nothing bad was happening, but then my older sister came and turned off ALL the lights. D:
I'll probably post some pictures up later, but if I don't check my myspace? Probably not there, but idunno.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Dork and Nerd
Me and this chick have been so tight with each other. We would tell each other everything and help each other when we have problems in life we couldn't overcome on our own.
We got into fights and things, but we quickly talked it over and made up again.
It was AAF between us two. No one could ever separate us.
If any faker got in our way we would say "Move Bitches". We would have hella things to talk about, but now if you take a look at us. We BARELY talk anymore.
She's usually talking to my sister and her other friends. And me? I'm just watching at the sideline not doing anything. I know I should start talking to her again so we could catch up on each other's lives, but I don't know.
I would always lean on her shoulders and she would lean on mine. But now if I have a problem I just cry and keep everything inside. There's hella shit I wanna tell her, but I don't even know how to start a conversation with her anymore.
We're still friends and everything, but it feels like we're just not that close anymore.
She's been through hella shit and I've helped her. Even now she's going through that kind of stuff, but I don't know what to do.
I wanna tell her that I wanna go back to how things were. I wanna put my problems aside for her again and help her through everything going on.
She probably don't need me cause she got other people, but I wish she would talk to me like before.
I try to hang out with her and the others, but I'm always like some other time. Like wtf? I'm not doing anything, why don't I go?
Hella shit has been happening to me too and NO ONE knows about it. I try and get away from people so they won't see me cry.
Ugh, I remember those days when we just laughed everything away even if we were in pain.
She would help me with my relationships and tell me what to do. She was my insipration in life and she still is.
She was everything to me. My inspiration, dork, madre, etc.
I don't know if she'll ever read this, but I wanna go back to how it was. I want to be her NERD again. Always being there for her and sweet talking with her.
But lately it seems those days are disappearing one by one. =/ Eventually all that's gonna be left is nothing.
We got into fights and things, but we quickly talked it over and made up again.
It was AAF between us two. No one could ever separate us.
If any faker got in our way we would say "Move Bitches". We would have hella things to talk about, but now if you take a look at us. We BARELY talk anymore.
She's usually talking to my sister and her other friends. And me? I'm just watching at the sideline not doing anything. I know I should start talking to her again so we could catch up on each other's lives, but I don't know.
I would always lean on her shoulders and she would lean on mine. But now if I have a problem I just cry and keep everything inside. There's hella shit I wanna tell her, but I don't even know how to start a conversation with her anymore.
We're still friends and everything, but it feels like we're just not that close anymore.
She's been through hella shit and I've helped her. Even now she's going through that kind of stuff, but I don't know what to do.
I wanna tell her that I wanna go back to how things were. I wanna put my problems aside for her again and help her through everything going on.
She probably don't need me cause she got other people, but I wish she would talk to me like before.
I try to hang out with her and the others, but I'm always like some other time. Like wtf? I'm not doing anything, why don't I go?
Hella shit has been happening to me too and NO ONE knows about it. I try and get away from people so they won't see me cry.
Ugh, I remember those days when we just laughed everything away even if we were in pain.
She would help me with my relationships and tell me what to do. She was my insipration in life and she still is.
She was everything to me. My inspiration, dork, madre, etc.
I don't know if she'll ever read this, but I wanna go back to how it was. I want to be her NERD again. Always being there for her and sweet talking with her.
But lately it seems those days are disappearing one by one. =/ Eventually all that's gonna be left is nothing.
2ne1
I'm really into this new group that just debuted. 2ne1
People talk shit about how they can't sing and how their ugly, but their fine to me. I mean their songs aren't really those type of high note type of songs so they don't really have to use strong vocals.
But their songs are catchy and interesting to me. Basically my older sister showed me them and that's how I got interested. (:
I just keep listening to their music. Lmao.
Here's their video Fire:
There's two versions of this song, but I like this version better. (:
I Don't Care:
Here's another song of theirs, but I like Fire more, but I guess that's your opinion.
The members consist of:Minzy, CL (leader), Dara, and Bom.
People talk shit about how they can't sing and how their ugly, but their fine to me. I mean their songs aren't really those type of high note type of songs so they don't really have to use strong vocals.
But their songs are catchy and interesting to me. Basically my older sister showed me them and that's how I got interested. (:
I just keep listening to their music. Lmao.
Here's their video Fire:
There's two versions of this song, but I like this version better. (:
I Don't Care:
Here's another song of theirs, but I like Fire more, but I guess that's your opinion.
The members consist of:Minzy, CL (leader), Dara, and Bom.
Ading
Oh my gosh, I love this chick tho.
I met her when I was in 8th grade, but we hella clicked once we started talking to each other.
She went to my church school too so it was fine. (:
I helped her through her problems and we eventually became hella close.
Too bad I ain't gonna see her anymore tho, since imma go to florin and shes at edward harris so yeah.
But we said that we should kick it sometime. She wanted to go to Chow king and get halo halo. xD
Fatty<3
Gosh, we've been through lots of things. Anyone starts hating on her, I got her back. :D
We're gonna be inseparable even if we can't see each other. Lmao.
We were sisters, but we changed it to ate and ading. xD
Talking about these kinds of things makes me wanna go back to being a middle schooler. D:
But I guess I'll see her at rec and hopefully be her rec mother. Lol.
Ate + Ading = AAF<3 :D
I met her when I was in 8th grade, but we hella clicked once we started talking to each other.
She went to my church school too so it was fine. (:
I helped her through her problems and we eventually became hella close.
Too bad I ain't gonna see her anymore tho, since imma go to florin and shes at edward harris so yeah.
But we said that we should kick it sometime. She wanted to go to Chow king and get halo halo. xD
Fatty<3
Gosh, we've been through lots of things. Anyone starts hating on her, I got her back. :D
We're gonna be inseparable even if we can't see each other. Lmao.
We were sisters, but we changed it to ate and ading. xD
Talking about these kinds of things makes me wanna go back to being a middle schooler. D:
But I guess I'll see her at rec and hopefully be her rec mother. Lol.
Ate + Ading = AAF<3 :D
Drama
All right, I thought I was past this whole bullshit.
I'm trying to forget everything, but that never seems to work out for me. D:
Hella shit has been happening, but NOT to me, but people just like dragging me into their drama.
I mean yes, I'll be there to comfort you and other shit like that, but don't get fucking mad at me in the end.
I helped you through it all and then I get your bullshit. Nuh huh, that ain't how it's gonna work.
My sister and my friend constantly bring up their drama and what can I do about?
Nothing? I mean I try my hardest to be their back-up, but sometimes I just want out.
I already have my problems and concerns. I just want to get away once in a while.
Hopefully this is gonna be over with fast cause I have plenty of other stuff to do than handle this kind of bullshit.
I'm trying to forget everything, but that never seems to work out for me. D:
Hella shit has been happening, but NOT to me, but people just like dragging me into their drama.
I mean yes, I'll be there to comfort you and other shit like that, but don't get fucking mad at me in the end.
I helped you through it all and then I get your bullshit. Nuh huh, that ain't how it's gonna work.
My sister and my friend constantly bring up their drama and what can I do about?
Nothing? I mean I try my hardest to be their back-up, but sometimes I just want out.
I already have my problems and concerns. I just want to get away once in a while.
Hopefully this is gonna be over with fast cause I have plenty of other stuff to do than handle this kind of bullshit.
Promises and Random Things
Okay, let's start off with the promises. :D
I promised my mom that I would work my sophomore and junior year so I can earn money to buy things for myself and not depend on them.
I would pay for my own cellphone and I'm not sure if I wanna join their plan or create my own plan, but I have a feeling that I'm gonna have to work A LOT. Haha.
Then I would have to pay for anything else I need so I hope I can accomplish this goal. =D
So the random things are basically that I suddenly went up to my mom and said I want a guinea pig or a rabbit. xD She was all like "What?!"
Haha, but I was all like "Yeah, buy me one." But I doubt that's likely.
Then of course she told me to tell my brother to buy one and I said no. xD
I mean I actually studied on rabbits and I'm trying to get my way to guinea pigs... sorta. >_<
I promised my mom that I would work my sophomore and junior year so I can earn money to buy things for myself and not depend on them.
I would pay for my own cellphone and I'm not sure if I wanna join their plan or create my own plan, but I have a feeling that I'm gonna have to work A LOT. Haha.
Then I would have to pay for anything else I need so I hope I can accomplish this goal. =D
So the random things are basically that I suddenly went up to my mom and said I want a guinea pig or a rabbit. xD She was all like "What?!"
Haha, but I was all like "Yeah, buy me one." But I doubt that's likely.
Then of course she told me to tell my brother to buy one and I said no. xD
I mean I actually studied on rabbits and I'm trying to get my way to guinea pigs... sorta. >_<
Stressed
I'm really stressing about hella stuff right now.
I have helluh mail coming from school and I REALLY don't want it to start.
I have to start getting school materials and signing up for hella crap.
UGH! I mean it shouldn't be that stressful, but I don't wanna start high school. I just think I ain't ready. xD
I have AVID things to do on the 9th and I have to attend Panther Day for school so it's like wtf.
I didn't know that time would pass by this fast and the economy isn't making things any better.
I try to stay positive, but something is always waiting to bring me down.
A lot of things are happening this week and I just want to slow down for one minute.
I'm gonna go crazy soon, I swear. Haha.
Blogging is the only thing that I can actually take my anger out so I'm fine with just typing my anger away. (=
There's nothing else that really stresses me out it's just the fact that hella stuff is happening in my life and school is about to start. xD
I have helluh mail coming from school and I REALLY don't want it to start.
I have to start getting school materials and signing up for hella crap.
UGH! I mean it shouldn't be that stressful, but I don't wanna start high school. I just think I ain't ready. xD
I have AVID things to do on the 9th and I have to attend Panther Day for school so it's like wtf.
I didn't know that time would pass by this fast and the economy isn't making things any better.
I try to stay positive, but something is always waiting to bring me down.
A lot of things are happening this week and I just want to slow down for one minute.
I'm gonna go crazy soon, I swear. Haha.
Blogging is the only thing that I can actually take my anger out so I'm fine with just typing my anger away. (=
There's nothing else that really stresses me out it's just the fact that hella stuff is happening in my life and school is about to start. xD
