Dork and Nerd

Me and this chick have been so tight with each other. We would tell each other everything and help each other when we have problems in life we couldn't overcome on our own.
We got into fights and things, but we quickly talked it over and made up again.
It was AAF between us two. No one could ever separate us.
If any faker got in our way we would say "Move Bitches". We would have hella things to talk about, but now if you take a look at us. We BARELY talk anymore.
She's usually talking to my sister and her other friends. And me? I'm just watching at the sideline not doing anything. I know I should start talking to her again so we could catch up on each other's lives, but I don't know.
I would always lean on her shoulders and she would lean on mine. But now if I have a problem I just cry and keep everything inside. There's hella shit I wanna tell her, but I don't even know how to start a conversation with her anymore.
We're still friends and everything, but it feels like we're just not that close anymore.
She's been through hella shit and I've helped her. Even now she's going through that kind of stuff, but I don't know what to do.
I wanna tell her that I wanna go back to how things were. I wanna put my problems aside for her again and help her through everything going on.
She probably don't need me cause she got other people, but I wish she would talk to me like before.
I try to hang out with her and the others, but I'm always like some other time. Like wtf? I'm not doing anything, why don't I go?
Hella shit has been happening to me too and NO ONE knows about it. I try and get away from people so they won't see me cry.
Ugh, I remember those days when we just laughed everything away even if we were in pain.
She would help me with my relationships and tell me what to do. She was my insipration in life and she still is.
She was everything to me. My inspiration, dork, madre, etc.
I don't know if she'll ever read this, but I wanna go back to how it was. I want to be her NERD again. Always being there for her and sweet talking with her.
But lately it seems those days are disappearing one by one. =/ Eventually all that's gonna be left is nothing.